So, I have started writing again!

Dunno what'll come out of it but, hey, we'll see what happens!

*bounces*

It's snowing! :D







I totally screwed that French exam up, simply because there wasn't enough time. And lack of time should really not be the reason why someone screws up an exam.

I started watching "The Big Bang Theory", I squee about Merlin, cause it's kinda slashier than Torchwood even if it lacks onscreen kissing, I read fics, I don't wanna sleep (which is weird, cause I always wanna sleep), have to study for the biology exam on thursday, got 7 points in practical geology ("you haven't said anything all year so you'll 'only' get 7 points" - seriously, what's wrong with that guy? it's a C-! I'd get worse marks in 5th grade!), try not to die on wednesday... and I just started writing an original sci-fi story. I've only got the introduction so far, though.

Does anyone want to read it? Cause if anyone does, I'll posts it here or something.

Anyway, got to go, see y'all!

ETA: Does it make me a geek if I think this is really really cool? :D



ETA2: LOVE. check out their other videos, they're so made of win!!

Hey there!

I just came to two shocking realizations.

The first one was that I have , in fact, slashed a much longer time than I thought I had. Unconsciously, of course, but still. I wrote a lot of original stuff when I started writing, and right now I kinda realize that I wasn't even that bad. That's cause my german was still better than my english. Now my english is better but not perfect, and neither is my german, which pretty much sucks and doesn't make my stories much better. Seriously, sometimes I think I had a much better writing style back then. Then again, the plots sucked and the character's were bitchy and emo, so I guess at least something is better now. Still! I slashed! Kinda, at least. Go and see.

Erfreut bemerkte Claudia dann, dass sich die meisten von ihr distanziert hatten. Nur eine alte Oma stand noch da, aber die schien glücklicherweise mit den Gedanken wo anders zu sein. Claudia kannte die Frau. Sie wohnte irgendwo am Marktplatz. Früher hatte sie dieses Café zusammen mit ihrem Mann geführt, der aber vor ein paar Jahren verstorben war. Sie selbst kam aber immer gerne ins Café und stand dann tatenlos herum. Wahrscheinlich erinnerte sie das alles an ihren Mann. Claudia konnte ihr es kaum verübeln.

Langsam nahm sie den Kuli in die Hand und schlug das Buch auf. Schon fast die Hälfte war mit ihrer, mal unordentlichen mal ordentlichen Handschrift beschrieben. Doch seufzend schlug sie das Buch gleich wieder zu, denn zwei Jungs, bestimmt drei, vier Jahre jünger als sie traten an ihren Tisch.

„Hey, willst du mit ihm gehen?“, fragte einer von ihnen. Der, der den Mund gehalten hatte war kaum zu erkennen, denn er hatte sich die Kappe so tief ins Gesicht gezogen, er hätte auch ein alter Opa sein können und man hätte es nicht erkannt.
„Warum geht ihr beiden nicht miteinander? Ihr gebt ein hübsches Pärchen ab“, knur
rte Claudia. Sie hasste es. Hier war man nie vor dummen Kindern mit Aufmerksamkeitssyndrom sicher.

„Na klar, das machen wir ja auch. Aber ich steh auf welche wie dich. Für dich würd ich ihn ja sogar verlassen“, erwiederte der eine wieder. Er kam sich wohl verdammt cool vor.

„Verpisst euch“, fauchte Claudia und nahm wieder ihre Tasse in die Hand.

„Was schreibst du denn da?“, der Typ ließ nicht locker. Claudia ignorierte ihn. Er stellte noch weitere Fragen, doch als Claudia überhaupt keine Notitz mehr von ihm nahm, verschwand er und der andere folgte ihm.


Now, the second reason I'm shocked is actually why I found this stuff.

As you may have noticed I'm just a little Steve Carlson and Christian Kane obsessed right now. So I ended up at spotinthecorner.net and there is this biography section, and then there is this:

“Supernatural” isn’t the only television show featuring Steve’s songs; his work also appeared in:

the ABC show “Men In Trees” (“Kinda Crazy These Days”)
the TV show “Crooked E: The Unshredded Truth About Enron” (“More Than I Deserve” - co-written with Christian Kane)
the movie “Be My Baby” (“Now That My Love Is Gone”)
the movie “Just Married” (“The Chase” - co-written with Christian Kane)
the movie “Life Or Something Like It” (“Sweet Carolina Rain” - co-written with Christian Kane)
the movie “Memory” (“Under You”)

Life Or Something Like It. I couldn't bloody believe it. I may or may not have sat in front of my laptop for about 10 minutes, staring and squeeing. Seriously. The reason why is a little complicated to explain, but I will try to make it short.

Years ago, around the time I started writing, there was this film on TV. Life or Something Like It - which is "Leben - oder so ähnlich" in german. I loved it, for several different reasons. To be honest, I don't remember much of the movie anymore, though I'll definitely watch it again, preferably tonight. Anyway, it kinda meant a lot to me, and I ended up more or less naming my next fic after it - "Regen - oder so ähnlich" cause, well, pretty much all my fanfic titles had the word 'Rain' in them, either in German or English. Thing about my fanfics, especially back then, is that they are part of me. To be honest, that doesn't really apply to them right now. I've written lots of Jack/Ianto, but not all of those really meant that much to me. Like "Home" - I wrote the fluff to cheer myself up, and it worked, but it didn't mean anything. It's like a one-night-stand, I guess. Anyway. Back then, my stories meant the world to me, and so did "Regen - oder so ähnlich". That's why the film stayed with me for so long. And believe me, that was a shock to realize Crhis and Steve wrote a song for it. Which you'll probably still don't understand, but whatever. Had to blog about this, cause my friends already think I'm insane as it is, I don't have to phone them at 11pm to tell them that Chris and Steve wrote a song for a film which's name I used for a fanfic, which for some reason means the world to me. Right. *rolls eyes* But they wrote it. They wrote a song for it!

The world is a small place, indeed.

So that's how I stumbled upon that original fic, cause I backed all my stories up a while ago and was looking for "Regen - oder so ähnlich" on the CD when I came across this original story.

Thought I'd share.

Cheers!

ETA: I'm still in shock though. I mean - they wrote a song for Life Or Something Like It! Ah! Weird!

ETA2: Looking through the back-up CD I actually found some poetry. and although this is me talking, it's actually not that bad!

This is totally pessimistic but I just love it. I think I wrote it in school...and wow, for school that's just awesome. If you ask me, anyway.

Without hope – Hoffnungslos

Die Nebelschwaden fliehen
Die Sonne kommt hindurch
Doch die Stille wird nicht gehen
Der Schatten bricht nicht auf

Die Sonne scheint, es regnet
Die Strahlen scheinen grau
Leise Schritte treten
Die Lebensgeister aus.

Und während noch die Hoffnung
Kommt und dann erlischt
Wer zählt schon auf die Hoffnung?
Ich, ich tu es nicht.

ETA3: Okay, I have to say I was wrong when I said my plot ideas sucked. Cause I just stumbled upon more stuff, and the plot ideas there just kicked ass. Which leaves me feeling pretty bad, cause apparently my writing got worse over the last 4 years or so, and really, that just sucks. I also realize that my writing style was a lot like Jonas' writing style is now, and I spent the last year drooling over his short stories. And really, just the short stories. He reminds me far too much of my brother for anything else. Now I'm drooling over my own writing style from four years ago. Fan-fucking-tastic. Life's just not fair.

ETA4: If I had been depressive to begin with, I'd be killing myself just about now. Some of those plots are frikking awesome. And I thought of them. And look at what I'm writing now. Seriously, WTF?

ETA5: Okay, that's it. That's just it. This is me quitting fanfiction for the time being. I got lots of more or less good plot ideas for Supernatural, lots of which I have started writing already, but I can't. I can't go on with that. Not after reading what I've just read. Not after reading what I've written years ago. Not like that. Sorry, if anyone out there was hoping to read any of my fanfics anytime soon, cause that's not gonna happen now. I need to find that part of myself, that was able to write awesome stories, first. 'Finding Yourself' sounds so cheesy, but that's just what this is. Bye-Bye Fanfiction it is, then.

ETA6 - and hopefully the last one: It is kinda funny though. This is me, a (wo)man on a mission, wearing a bathrobe over her pyjamas, ready to conquer whatever comes across her path. Very Arthur Dent. now there was a nice man. you honestly thought i could write an entry without any kind of doctor who reference? well, no such luck.

ETA7(and, really, the last one):It's way past midnight, but I'm feeling a bit better again. Maybe I should write Steve Carlson a thank-you letter. Seriously, only his music.

note to self: order new contacts.
i only got some for another month and it always takes ages until new ones arrive.

soo, it's wednesday. i begin to like wednesdays. nice break after the madness of tuesdays. and such a relaxed day!
Okay, first half of school is never so great: History, Chemistry and Music - after that you feel like you've just had 6 hours of school - but the rest is fine. Maths, English and Politics.

I read my aweful poem in English...oh well, our teacher seemed to like it.
Be careful, this might hurt your eyes.

( Poem under the Cut )

For those of you who were to scared to look under the cut (can't really blame you^^) the last line is "Leave this behind - cause living is work". Now, I'm gonna analyse that. Because I can.
Oh and because I'm bored. Who'd have guessed.
So! Living is work. The poem is about someone (well, me) wanting to go somewhere else, 'see more of the world' and blah. For me, that is living. going somewhere else, meet new people & places. that's living for me. so you should put some effort in living. because what's life without living? so living is work, and that's why. Yup, and you are probably running away screaming right now. Long live the randomness!

But anyway. That was the english lesson, Politics was next. I gotta say, the wheather is awesome! Sun is shining and I've been running around in shorts and t-shirt when i got back from school. So we went outside in Politics, two groups did some presentations and we pretended to listen. Not like you can understand very much when there are little kids and some guys who've already passed their final exams running around and shouting and (in the older guys' case) drawing something on the floor. turns out that was a mouth... ah well. crazy people. crazy crazy. and you say i'm mad! (well actually you don't say that - i do! but nevermind).
It was really nice lying in the sun though. And writing stuff on my calendar, trying not to laugh out load when I discovered that page where i've written lots and lots of jack/ianto stuff... XD

Rest of the day was okay too. Went to the bookstore to order part 4 and 5 of the Hitchhikers Guide series by Douglas Adams. Which reminds me: Towel Day! The 25th of May! Don't forget your towels, people. eh, I can remember the latest towel day really well. Took that red towel with me.. oh it was fun. Douglas Adams rocks. well, rocked. Can you even say that?

I've spent the last hour or so painting... there's the pic. Small version, once again. Click here for the original version.



Uhm.. so my mother just came in and she said "oh this looks great!" which i thought was a good sign. sure. "looks like you". yeha. thank you very much.
okay, seriously, please tell me this looks at least a bit male? just a tiny tiny bit? y/n?

have fun!
neyne

for my fucking grafic tablet to arrive! seriously, what's taking them so long, i paied for it a week ago!

but anyway. i had a wonderful idea for a toshiko/ianto fanfic, but now i can't remember it. well, i'll probably have another idea. cause i need something to do. i'm going crazy here (more crazy than usual) because i got nothing to do. and i don't feel like running around in this stupid little town like i did yesterday.
i might rearrange the furniture or something. i even cleaned & tidied up the kitchen this morning, out of boredom. and because my favorite cd only works in the kitchen's cd-player, but that's just another bloody annoying thing. anyway! it's getting warmer again, around 8°C. two days ago it was snowing, and it's supposed to be really warm this weekend. this is typical april-wheather, actually. only that it's march *rolls eyes*
my theory is that 'cause of the climate changes and stuff the wheather is a month, or at least a couple of weeks ahead. which isn't that bad, since we got early summer vacations this year. i think they start in june or so. 23.06. until 01.08. there you go. the magic of looking things up.

oh and i updated my profil today. because i got nothing better to do. i even went through my bookmarks and read through some of the forums i haven't visited for ages. not like anyone is online atm, which is rly weird. i'll survive it.
but i'll start writing something now, that might at least occupy me for a couple of hours.

see ya!

Hi there, people and aliens and whoever else reads this. (like anybody'd actually read this. oh well...)

So I'm still ill, or better: I'm still feeling ill, tired and dizzy, but at least I got no more stomachaches so it'S quite okay.
Been watching some Stargate SG-1 and been readin many Jack/Ianto fanfics for most - or actually, all - of the day.
I'll do all the homework I refused to for the last 3 days tomorrow.
Which leaves me with a free evening!

Question is just: what do I do?
I mean except reading more Jack/Ianto or watching more Stargate and listening to Apocalyptica.
I've been listening to the same three songs for about 2 hours now: Fade To Black, One and Farewell. I started with ten songs this morning. It's funny how my playlists get shorter and shorter the longer the music is playing.
And it's funny how my english gets worse every day, and my german stopped being good a year ago. Oh well.

So I'm not really in the mood of writing anything and drawing really bores me atm. I drank lots of tea this evening and I've eaten lots of stuff, half of which I don't really remember, but wayne cares. I might get some more food, cause eating is never boring, but still. I'd really like to write some Torchwood fanfics. Life in the Hub. A day with exactly NOTHING happening, but everyone stays in the Hub - what do they do?
I'd so love to write something about that but writing anything in english won't be good right now as my english tends to be rly rly bad, and I doubt anyone will read it if I write it in german. Except Fordi, maybe. And I could make Vio read it, although I don't see much sense there as she doesn't even watch Dr. Who.

But as i said, who cares? So I might write that now. Whether I did or not you'll find out tomorrow or later this evening. See ya!

edit:

oh, btw, i just noticed the "time lord" tag is getting bigger and bigger so i though i'd explain it a bit!

Well I "invented" the name on New Years Eve, when I was pretty drunk already. It's just a tag for everything RANDOM about my life that has something to do with DR. WHO or TORCHWOOD. randomness of my life + DW/TW. that is.
Which reminds me, i love "if bla bla bla... , that is". love that kinda sentence. No, i'm not crazy, why do you think I am?