So, I'm not posting THAT much random stuff here lately, which is because that is all on twitter. Consider it a good thing.

Yesterday was fun! We did somehow end up playing soccer in the dark, but we weren't too drunk at the time so nobody died or broke any bones. I call that a successful birthday party :]

Gonna spend today downloading lots of episodes and printing fanfics so I won't die of boredom tomorrow.

So I guess I'll be online all day today, but after that you won't hear from me until Wednesday afternoon/evening, depending on when I can go home. Stupid hospitals :/

Meme! (snagged from sajina)

Rules:
01. Anyone who looks at this entry has to post this meme and their current wallpaper at their LiveJournal.
02. Explain in five sentences why you're using that wallpaper!
03. Don't change your wallpaper before doing this! The point is to see what you had on!

I've had this wallpaper for over a month now! *is proud*. I really love the movement here and the colours. Like there's a storm coming but he's running through it anyway. Love it :)

Oooooh wanking in Supernatural fandom, how come I am not surprised at all?
So, apparently someone actually asked security to throw Jensen's girlfriend out. Cause she was sitting there. Which is very awful. *headdesks* It's already on wank_report and it's growing rapidly so it'll probably be on fandom_wank soon. Best part? There are actually plenty of people who agree with the OP. Wtf?

Aaaanyhow! Fandom drama beats RL drama, y/y? I just got the lab results back and they are fine, so basically no-one has any idea what's wrong with me. Awesomesauce.

But! It's spring! Seriously, it's really warm here today. Love it, even if it gives me a headache.

About the con, has anyone heard anything about Steve Carlson? I've seen three short videos of his gig on youtube, but that was it. No reports, no pics, no mention of his panel. Does anyone know something? :(

ETA: There are finally videos of the breakfast panel! Yay!

Guess who's really ill again!
I'm not sure I even want to know what scared my immune system so much that it just ran off a couple of years ago.

So instead of taking an English exam I'm spending the day in bed, trying not to die. And thinking about how to make Jensen look like a very hot, female hooker. I do love my brain. It distracts me from the painful reality.

I think I'm also kind of addicted to "Trust Me." I'm interested in advertising, even though I doubt I'd ever be good at it. The whole drama part of it is sort of boring and annoying but I love the chemistry between Mason and Connor. So, yeah, watching that. Looks like tnt is airing a couple of good shows lately.

Btw, if my grammar is as sucky as I think it is, I blame it on being ill. I'm kinda glad I didn't go to school - the exam would've been a disaster!

Thank god for J2 stories and "The Ballad Of Jared And Jensen". They make me happy.

And happy + dead is totally better than unhappy + dead. Zombies ftw!

....I don't know why I just wrote that.

Hey there!

The two-weeks long autumn holidays started today. I'm not sure whether I'll do anything for two weeks. A friend of mine'll come back from Lodi (town in Wisconsin, I think) during the second week and maybe I'll have my birthday party then (my birthday's coming up! it's on saturday! whoo!) but I don't really know yet. Won't have particularly big party anyway. Just a few close friends or something. Too lazy to organise anything else, anyway.

And hey, who would have guessed? I'm ill again! Also got the feeling that's the only thing I'm bitching about all the time. But oh well. Can't really talk anymore cause my throat hurts so much. Long live sage though, it's like the best cure for having a sore throat ever.

My Kane-fixation got even worse lately, mostly because of the awesome adelate. You know, "Different Kind Of Knight" is for many people kinda the typical Kane song, but I never really listened to it. Well, I did now, and I just love it! The lyrics are just awesome.

But I got a pain outside with enough giddyup
To be free
I got a faint smell of cheap perfume
And a hint of gasoline
See I'm a different kind of knight
You're gonna find your fairy tales are lies
I don't have a white horse
But you can come along for the ride

I'm still not done watching How I met your Mother, by the way. It's kinda shocking to realize that I really don't have the time. Cause, you know, I used to always have time. Now I'm just using lots and lots of italics. Whatever.

My subject line says "RL Stuff" but I just have to add some Suerpnatural recs, simply because they are so damn awesome.

Or at least one. It's a gen fic but it is really, really amazing. Please read, it's worth it!

You Know Who You Are by apocalypsos

ETA: Okay, a second rec cause it's got one of the best lines in the fic-history of ever: "Great, you're trapped in a small shower with a masturbating angel"

Lessons by annella

Yeah, who would have guessed? I'm ill. Again.
Since what happened in February I'm a little jumpy when it comes to headaches. But headaches and nausea? Freaks me out.

So I'm staying at home today. Possibly tomorrow. Don't know. I really get the feeling that I'm ill, like, every second week or so. Annoys me to death.

But whatever. Can't even watch old SGA/Supernatural/Heroes/Torchwood/Doctor Who episodes cause I've watched them SO many times lately that I kinda need a break right now.

But talking about that! Spoilers for the latest Heroes and the latest SGA episode!

It's official. Fangirl dreams DO come true.

So, about a year ago I read this fanfic. Where Nathan, Peter and Sylar were brothers. It was pretty awesome. Then I watch Heroes 3x02 and the freaking fic is coming true. Hello, Star Wars moment! I may or may not have laughed or about half an hour.

Then there's Stargate. First of all, the episode from two weeks ago? Totally jealous!Sheppard! Heh! Maybe Rodney should hook up with him to make Jennifer jealous. Although Shep really doesn't seem to like McKay/Keller. I can just agree. If Keller gets a boyfriend then it's Ronon. Oh! But there's also some interesting Dannyboy/Rod potential.

Which brings us to the latest episode. SGA kinda bores me lately, but that changed within two minutes when one Daniel Jackson was beamed to Atlantis' Gateroom. Said area has a special name but I totally forgot that. Man, I gotta write SGA fic again or I'll forget everything.

Anyway! There's Danny! So I actually watch the episode with something resembling interest. And it turns out to be really good. Like, really good. It's awesome! and Rodney actually calles Daniel "Danny" that one time.

But dammit! Evil cliffhanger! REALLY evil. And there's no Lorne...why is there no Lorne? He'd totally save the day. Then again, maybe he will. It was kinda cool to see Caldwell again though. Didn't think I'd ever miss the guy, but he totally brought the good-old-SGA feeling back. Like, second season. Now I've got to watch the episode with the whole Storm thing again. Where there's also Lizzy. As in, the real Lizzy. Who also acts like Lizzy. I totally adored her, but even months before she "died" (well, now she is dead, but it took them ages) they already fucked the character up. Hey, and there's Ford! I SO miss the guy. He brought something to the whole Atlantis crew that is simply missing now. I mean, when was the last time we saw some of the Atlantis guys just hanging out, like guys? Not dating, not plotting, not angsting around each other but hanging out? Watching football tapes? Feeding Teyla popcorn? I really miss that about the show. You start to forget they're people, not some battle scenes combined with bad soap opera.

But whatever. Did I mention the latest episode ruled? So can't wait 'til the next! Then again, can't wait for that Supernatural episode again, spoilers! where Dean goes back in time, for whatever reason. That's so cool!

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Aand the nausea is starting again, so I guess I'll curl up in bed with my laptop and a really old SGA episode and hope it'll go away. See you guys!

I'm knackered. Like, really really knackered.

I mean, I'm running around a lot (no real running but whatever) but today? It's hell!

I get up at 6:30 am, as usual. Am at school an hour later. Luckily there's no afternoon class so I get home early. Someone's actually made lunch for a change, which makes the day at least a bit more bearable. 2pm and I go to the town hall to get finally get a new ID cause I totally forgot about that. And it's my birthday on the 4th.... woohoo! This time everything actually goes well. So I'm back home half an hour later. I grab some more stuff and head all the way across town - cause, really, who'd drive me? And there's no bus going in that direction - until, half an hour later, I'm finally at the neurology clinic. After that it's my family-doctor and then the dermatologist. At least those are close-buy. I walk back home which takes another half hour. I only set a foot in the house and I have to go yet again and take my cat to the vet. Which resulted in me not feeling my arms anymore cause that beast of a cat is freaking fat! Fortunately that didn't take too long so when I got back I only had to go to the pharmacy (of course they didn't have all the medicaments) and I'm finally, finally here. I'm so not moving again for the rest of the day.

Might just go and finish watching the 2nd season of 'How I Met Your Mother' (yeah I'm still behind...). See you!

Never. Again.

Strange thing is, it doesn't really hurt. It's just gross.

But I'll start st the beginning of this awful story-of-doom (yeah right...).

It begins yesterday. With me walking around in heels, which is all sweet and nice, but then it starts raining. And, knowing my luck, I - of course - get water in my shoes. Now, try walking around with wet feet in heels. 10 minutes later there's not much of your feet left.

So I put blister pads on. Which, in itself, looked pretty weird, having all these pseudo-transparent bandages around my toes. What I didn't know is that the skin of said blisters wasn't going to heal. And voilà - I take the blister pads off, and have half my toes' skin dangling at them. And yeah, it's gross.

Means I've got four skin-less, red, bloody patches on my toes now and I haven't got a clue how I'm suppose to walk on Monday. And I'm really not looking forward to the moment when it's going to hurt.

Need some good J2 to distract me now. Any recs?

That's just it. so bloody typical.

I'm not even three weeks back at school and I'm already getting ill. Granted, the last few weeks have been more stressful than several months last year, but still. How unfair is that? I don't get a lot of sleep anyway, can't I at least keep that tiny bit of health I have left?

At least I got an excuse to stay at home tomorrow. Cause, apparently, I have a temperature, and well. Epilepsy and fever? Not so great. Really, not.

But! I'm gonna go watch Dark Angel now cause I saw pictures of Jensen in sunglasses in DA and I can't miss that now, can I?

Also a little meme which I snagged from rasberry_smile.

1. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random

The first article title on the page is the name of your band.



2. http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3

The last four words of the very last quote is the title of your album.



3. http://www.flickr.com/explore/interesting/7days/

The third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.


4. Use your graphics program of choice to throw them together, and post it in your own journal.



There you go. Bye!

hiya!
this is an old picture of mine, must've painted it about 8 months ago, but I still like it so I thought I'd share!

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Also, we're going to that climbing park kind of thing tomorrow... and it's going to be boring as hell. Cause, since I'm not allowed to do anything like that anymore, I'll just sit somewhere and wait. Luckily I'm not the only one - a girl in my class was in surgery (because of her knee) not too long ago, so she won't run around in the trees either. The question's just: what the hell are we supposed to be doing there for four hours! We're lucky if there's some kind of building where we can sit down in case it rains (and, according to the wheather forcast, it is going to rain). I guess I'll go on writing Reflections (I decided not to kill Yan, but he'll be baaadly injured!), or another fanfic!

I got the idea during today's English lesson, cause we were talking about weirdos (i tried to be reeeally small, they can happily take someone else as an example!) and later on about eccentrics, madmen (lol?) individualists and autists. The latter gave me an idea...I'm not quite sure whether I'll follow through with that, but considering that I might as well do that instead of being bored to death, I might just do it. We'll see!

I still feel really sick when I just think about food. I was in school today, but during the second lesson I felt totally sick again, and went outside. It got a bit better two hours later, but now it's starting again. I fucking hate it! And looks like it really is a side-effect of my medicament. Problem is, I don't have much of a choice but to remain taking it, because all alternative medicaments have even worse side-effects. Great.

Anyway, I'll go and see what I can find out about Autism, in case I want to write that fanfic.
See ya!

So... On friday next week, our summer holidays will begin. and I won't do anything. Just like the last two years. Or, at least, I'm not going anywhere, and will probably not go to parties every night. I'm thinking about getting a laptop soon, because the idea of me spending six weeks trapped in my room in front of my pc totally freaks my mom out. And I am a very nice person... really!

Anyway, I just found something to do and that's horizonssing! It's brilliant! I doubt I'll write something every day, but this'll be a great way to spend the long, boring and probably far too hot days of July. Woohoo!

Btw, I wrote a large part of 'Reflections' last night, or actually this morning at 2am, and it sucks. I love the plot idea, but I can't really write it down.. *sulks*

Anyway, I don't seem to be able to eat anything now without feeling sick. It sucks - and is apparently yet another sideeffect of my brilliant medicament. Because being permanently tired is surely not enough!

ETA: I don't seem to paint anymore because I want to paint a picture or because I want to create something, do something properly. I just doodle a bit, but I wouldn't be able to live without it.

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It's two and a half month today. On a wednesday. Just another reason to totally hate Wednesdays! Because these fucking precautions get more and more annoying every day!

Cause, You know, at the beginning I was confident that it wouldn't change a thing. Had a seizure - who cares? And, to be honest, at the beginning, hardly anything changed. But that's just cause it was a too short time to realize what kind of things might actually change. From my POV back there it was like 'yeah take some pills two times a day and that's it.'
Well, it isn't.

So I started to take that medicament. Turned out the side-effect weren't nice at all. I couldn't sleep properly during the first week or so, woke up every morning precisely at 4am and had problems going back to sleep again. It got better, but I'm still pretty tired in general. Which doesn't exactly help the stress i got at school atm. My hands are shaking a bit more than usual, too, but other than that, there don't seem to be any more permanent side-effects of the medicament.

But, as lucky as I am, I soon figured out a few of the things I'm not allowed to do:

-drinking alcohol. which, for me, isn't a problem at all. ppl might look at you strangely when you're at a party and don't drink anything at all, but i can cope with that.

-cycling. Seriously, I'm not allowed to cycle anymore.

-swimming. and this TOTALLY SUCKS. it's summer! it's fucking summer and i'm not allowed to swim.

-then there's that class trip we're doing. it's like a garden, but you're walking (more like climbing) on trees. pretty cool thing, and i was really looking forward to it. and guess what: i'm not allowed.

and there's more, much more, but i'm currently happily trying to ignore those.

You know and I'm not sulking here, I'm not throwing an emo fit. Not really, anyway. I'm just really disappointed and angry at the whole situation, cause to be honest, my health hasn't been very good before either, but now? it's like it's all screwed up.

And I don't want this to change my life, but by the looks of it I don't have much of a choice. Did I mention it SUCKS?

but enough of that.

I'm really flattered that I got so many comments on the latest part of my fic! I never got that many comments on anything I ever wrote! *squees* Thanks everyone :D

and now i gotta run again, cause we're writing a maths test tomorrow and i wanted to start learning at 3pm. It's 7pm now, and i still didn't get along to do it. i was busy. at least for the last two hours i was really busy and before i was uhm...mentally preparing for it? dunno. anyway, gotta go.

see you n take care!

hello there!

did i mention i'm ill? i think so. or didn't it? oh who cares.
so i AM ill. and it's not nice. well, to be honest it's much better than yesterday and wednesday (although i'm on drugs so my perception might be a bit off). it began on tuesday evening (which was fun! wee! - okay, drugs, ignore me.), i had a bit of a sore throat, and later on i felt really sick and dizzy and all. but as i like living in denial, i decided to sleep a night over it, cause it'd probably be gone in the morning. yeah right.
when i woke up i had a sore throat like whoa, couldn't swallow, couldn't breathe properly and was feeling totally sick. all in all pretty aweful. so i went to a doctor, but had to wait two hours which resulted in me nearly throwing up over their shoes. not like the visit to the doctor helped or anything. i only got lots of painkillers and that was it. woohoo. oh, and about throwing up! I'll just quote the previous entry:
Dont, and I mean it, don't think about things like a Captain Sandwich with Ianto filling when you're ill. Giggling makes you vomit.
Really. Don't.

But uhm well, I'm feeling a bit better now. I can eat again, I can more or less walk again. And I have to work again, which is not so nice. I have to write a really long report about the worst book in the history of books: Professor Unrat. Seriously, does it get any more boring? Ah wait a second. It's not only about that. It's also about the most stupid film in the history of films (oh and not shark attack 3. if it was that, we could at least drool a bit over JB!) - 'Der Pauker'. Those two combined. Three questions. And at least 1000 words.
Which, in itself isn't that bad. I can write 1000 about random stuff any day. In fact, since I got nothing better to do, I'll go find one of my latest journal entrys that got about 1000 words.
There you go: Coffee - Do stupid things faster and with more energy.
But that's the thing actually: randomness? I can write 10 pages about that. But specific stuff? It took me one months to write 8 pages of my current fanfic (Rooftops, Rifts and Random Acts). Well, and the fanfic is good.
Luckily, 1000 words are only about 2 pages on the pc so about 4 pages on paper, and i've written two pages in one day already, sometimes even more, but the topic? it's so awefully boring, i doubt i could just go and write that shit. that's what i hate about school. when you have a job you can, at least to some degree, chose what you want to do. and you don't go and work as a PA when you hate telephoning or running after people or making coffee and what not. y'know what i mean?
here you simply have no choice.

oh did i mention the living in denial thing? i tend to do that. but sometimes it gets too annoying to ignore it. like now. i even did my maths homework because it's better than that. (and it's boring like whoa because it's so easy but that's not the point is it).
but as i mentioned, i got no coice, gotta do it, gotta start today. i'll probably do the first part now.
which is just as ridiculous, cause it's a summary of 'der pauker', but we haven't even finished watching it! so how does THAT make sense? i suppose i gotta google some summary's to see what's going on. but since i'm nice i won't copy them. i only do that when i'm desperate. and right now i'm not desperate, just annoyed.

hey, and we'll get another who episode tomorrow! wee!
though, to be honest, i was kinda disappointed from the last episode. i didn't really like martha in it. and usually i love martha!
tehe, but Donna's grandpa! I love him. He rules! :D

Tehe and i posted at jackxianto again. See, I'm not dead (yet)! Though, once again it wasn't because of a fic (i wish), but because of fanvid ideas. i quite like those actually.

but anyway, fanfics! i must've mentioned it 20 times already, so I won't start rambling about R,R&R again. however i got another fic idea which i'll write after R,R&R, whenever that'll be. probably in another month or so xD
it's a jack/ianto + ianto's family fanfic and i like it :D then again, i like all my fanfics. except that first sylar/mohinder fanfic there. corny doesn't even do it justice. it's aweful! *grins* though it's quite cute too. but seriously it's all like: life's bad, poor gabe, mohinder gives him hope and kisses him (and that's all good! uhm but i'm not sure if he kisses him. i think so!). yeah and then the sun comes out and a rainbow streches over the city. and i run away and hide because that's just AWEFUL. i wasn't good at shipping/slahsing at that time. i still aren't, but it's getting better. i have a good feeling about R,R&R and i hope others will like it too.

and i'm rambling again. randomness. oh yeah. must be the drugs (who am i kidding, i do this all the time).

well, take care people. i'm gone, looking for cake or something similar.

ETA: i just ran a word count, and this entry got 952 words! just a proof. i can talk about shit, and write 952 in half an hour. frm 17:48 to 18:22. which is EXACTLY half an hour, in fact. cool! so you see. i can do that.

ETA2: just decided to do that german essay tomorrow - i'll spend the rest of the day watching queer as folk. cheers!

ETA3: to annoy you all just a little bit more, i painted a stupid, ugly little eye again. i painted a far better pic too, but it's too big for this layout and looks aweful when you make it smaller. buut you can view it here in case you're interested. (who am i kidding...)
anyway. eye. there you go.

hello there!

Fanfic of the day: The List by just-being-me08

Song of the day: Saliva - Always

Episode of the day: Doctor Who - Human Nature

Fictional character of the day: Harriet Jones' PA. He should make an appearance again!

Rule of the day: Dont, and I mean it, don't think about things like a Captain Sandwich with Ianto filling when you're ill. Giggling makes you vomit.

My idea of a nice morning: Eating cherry cake in bed and listening to Jack/Ianto porn! Gotta love it.

Actor of the Day: John Barrowman. (what a suprise. ah but i just watched some clips from 'this morning' (which he was co-hosting the last couple of days or so. he's doing a lot of co-hosting really. i still got the audio tracks from capital breakfast on my computer. he's hilarious!) and him jumping up and down with pom poms and doing some cheerleading nearly killed me. not to mention these pant-thingys. i hope scott doesn't watch the show or he'll run away as fast as he can.)

i know it's been a while since i last posted, but i've been kinda busy.
however, by pc is now back online and i got nothing to do than annoy you a bit.

so, i've been kinda ill the last few days but i'll be fine and it's getting much better. which is some kind of wonder, actually, cause i've been running around the whole day, as well as yesterday. but no, i'm still alive. can't complain.

I'm currently writing a fanfic about Owen and Owen's past... uh and it needs a lot of editing. Cause how I wrote it, it just sucks. Must be, because I don't know Owen that well, and somehow it's hard for me to get in-character. I might write a fic with the same plot, but about Ianto. Cause in that case I'd know exactly what to write and I could even put some Jack/Ianto in it. And what does one want more than Janto plus a good Ghost Story? Because that's what my story is about: ghosts. And it makes it much easier with Ianto because you don't know anything about his past, save that he's been working for Torchwood I. And in Owen's case I'm not sure whether you know something or not. So I guess I'll stick with Ianto.

But I'll write something about Owen anyway... when the time comes ;)